Thanks to the Hazelnut Latte I had this afternoon, I am still awake now.  It's amazing what the state of serenity can do to the soul.  I was in all accept good mood before I went to bed.. after two hours of staring in the dark, I thought maybe I'll seek the Lord for some wisdom in life...   the Lord gave me flashbacks of my past...

 

My mind drifted from one scene to another

nostalgic memories of Uni days...

   nervous first day of work .... (btw that's when I first met my husband)

          stressful nights of recovering dead NTs and figuring out what ASP stands for...

             .....

               my blissful wedding day

                  the nite wakes feeding Ryan

                      the smile on this cutest face on earth

 

I realised two things....  we need to get a quieter washing machine (we left it running while we went to bed) and that

                           I've been so richly blessed

 

So despite how lousy I feel about my situation and how inadequet I feel about myself... I know I am ok cos He won't give me what I have today if he feels the same way I feel about myself.  So no matter what happens tommorrow, what bad decision I make and how much I think I didn't perform to expectations..... I'll still be ok.

 

I just remember we have Ferrero Rocher in the fridge, I think it will help me sleep... oh how wonderful life is...   and while life is wonderful I think I'll hang the laundry, for once.